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a little background - several times in my life I have had dreams of battling or fighting something very mean and nasty that was “my mother” but wasnt really my mother. The house I was dreaming about in my latest dream was the house I grew up in - which had a real what some would say was demonic presence in it - not a nice place it was so I don’t think about it often but anyway

Last night I had this dream I was in this house with its general yucko energy and I started to have this fight with “mom” and she was so cruel - just saying things that were so mean and telling me all her troubles in life were because of me and she never should have had me and I was annoying and a bother and should just leave etc… it went on and on and then I realized this thing wasn’t my mother so I grabbed it and started strangling it to free my mother … odd nightmare - rather troubling but then after this I saw myself sitting and comforting a girl who had been injured in an accident and I was encouraging her to try to take better care of herself and to not give up and I wasn’t preaching to her just telling her I knew she had it inside of her to do this and wouldn’t it be nice to feel good again and etc etc and when she started to feel better I was talking to another person who was contemplating suicide and my approach with them was more direct like think of your kids and how devastated they would be, don’t you think thats a bit selfish of you? I understand deep pain and grief but you should think of the deep pain and grief you will leave behind… and then I was looking in a mirror before I woke up and my face looked bright and my eyes were very clear and I remember thinking wow Im glad I had all of those experiences and like looking at my skin as though doing all this somehow cleared my complexion… So how’s that for a symbolic dream?? lol

I think it indicates me overcoming some abuse as a child (ironically not at the hand of my mother so why it manifests as her in my dreams I have no idea) perhaps it is part of me angry at myself because I felt I didn’t take better care of myself… I don’t know what ot make of that. I also think it was showing me that as I’ve helped heal myself and fight my own demons from earlier in my life I became better able to empathize with others and to encourage them to face their own battles and perhaps seeing the clearer skin/eyes in the mirror is symbolic of releasing karma or “lightening up” spiritually somehow….

Any thoughts on this are welcome as I never have dreams where I am violent so this was a twist for me. I’ve had dreams where I yell and argue but never one where I try to strangle something… very odd….